why was today so draining?
more than likely it was because of staying up late to work on my paper -or- listening to a man yell at me for half an hour because our senator supports carding for alcohol at any age -or- listening to a woman tell me how she gets screwed over on child support -or- hearing a story about a child who gets hit with a remote control by a teacher and has no sympathy from the school systems -or- being scolded for not knowing the senator's stance on immigration -or- the fact that the senator had four appointments within an hour so we had at least 17 people waiting to see him. they are loud. lobbyists. -or- not being allowed to take a lunch break because we're too busy -or- pretending like i'm on staff here and an intern and trying to do both jobs even though i'm not capable -or- getting reprimanded by the senator for transferring his call wrong -or- not grabbing the right binder for committee -or- the other thousands of things that i do wrong.
thankfully fatima showed up in the midst of all of it. and i have friends who text me and brighten my day. my mom emails me and i have a bottle of good water here. it's just so clear i don't belong here. but that's okay.
i'm learning so much. and learning so much by doing things wrong. incorrect. learn heather learn. gosh why are you so stupid didn't you go to high school? no!! they didn't teach me this in class!!!! these are lessons that aren't in textbooks.
i'm good at school. this isn't school.
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