+are you getting somewhere? or did you get lost in Amsterdam?

from because everyone needs a little place to write by a girl named heather
a little seasonally appropriate blog layout changes?

my blog is one year old tomorrow.

my old livejournal was goin 4-5 years strong. so we got some time to go.

but still.

lately, a little bit of me dies inside of impatienece everytime i think about my own home. i've felt like this for a couple of years now, but upkeeping a home is a dream of mine that can't come soon enough. i'm realistic enough to know that will not happen for some time. at least not in the next year while i'm still in school. and highly unlikely right when i get out of school. but some time. but still i find myself drifting off in class to the idea of coming home and putting on music in my living room, starting the oven for a warm meal, bringing in the mail and sorting through it, opening the refridgerator that is covered with magnets and photos of people i love. i imagine the smell of clean laundry and the warmth of lighting that i (as a lighting snob) will have in every room. i imagine the feel of carpet on my bare feet and the ability to go from room to room and eventually to my comfy bed to sink into a deep satisfying sleep. in my dream i don't confuse it with wondering if anyone will live there with me or what my job will be or where i will live or if having a house means i can't travel or any of those things. that's probably why it's a little happy place i can run to when my week seems to stress me out. so here's to fireplaces, carpet floors, open windows, and lots of dreams!