+all the other girls here are stars--you are the northern lights

no matter how this story unfolds, it's going to include a lot of patience. i am happy to wait. i am happy to endure. i am happy to hope. i am happy to be realistic. i am happy to be logical. and i'm willing to fall flat on my face--and then maybe have to wait to heal again. i think it's that worth it. and that's amazingly huge. and scary. and there should be red flags popping up all around me--but for some reason i'm stubborn enough to not care. i don't know what kind of advice i need right now. i probably just need time. what an enigma.